I Met You In My Life

New post and first post in January.

Last year in the 1st semester, I met you. You got a murderous look in the first sight I saw you. I kept on wondering what were you thinking usually and why would you show that kind of emotion. Since that, I made up my mind to know more about you and feel what kind of character you're playing.

Few months later, I did it. I did know you much better than others. I felt so pleasure to be one of your close friends. I'm so glad that to be together with you as I could learn and gain lots of things from you. I felt that I'm so lucky to meet such independent and full of knowledge in her mind. I'm kinda admire on her life. The lives that you went through in these years. For me, I might think that you're really perfect. Somehow, you might not think so. So? Urgh...You're still perfect for me...>.<" I wish to have the knowledge and experiences that you went through for so many years as well. Owing this might help me to become more independent in myself and would not rely on others anymore.

I do concern you much than I ever had. This is what I'm wondering for. Why? I don't know. Because I treat you as my best friend? How about sister? LOL....Yea..Indeed. I do. I don't have sister at home, but only an eldest brother. He doesn't talk much with me neither at home nor here. So I can treat anyone that I care very much. Who treat me good, I will be treat that person good as well as two times of it. So, this is me! Don't ever think that I'm a les or whatever. But, this is real of me. I couldn't change this kind of characteristic. This kind of characteristic followed me for 18 years since I was born. What to do.

But recently, it seems like something happened between us and feels like estrange from you. It's due to your personal problems or I'm the one who thinking to much? This question would struggle me for how long? No one knows. The most I scare is, the misunderstanding between us and make us couldn't be together like the feeling previously that we ever had. Since I know you got a case that kinda same as the case like now we're facing. But, I'm just treat you as best best friend that I ever had in my life. T.T You gave me motivation and taught me everything that I don't know. Am I naive? or stupid?

Give me some time not to rely and depend on you anymore. =(

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