Stress!

Midnight, 2.23a.m.

I sleep late in Kuching =.=" I wonder why. 

Anyway, yesterday night I've made a cake. It was my first cake in my life, but seems like not really well-done in it. I will get improve some time later. Perhaps will upload the photos IF I succeed make it. xD 

I'm worry about my test after one week of the Chinese New Year. How liao?????? lol. I need motivator and supporter >.<" God, safe me. Thanks first.

Goodnight~

Home Sweet Home

26th of Jan, Rainy day

I was at my hometown now, which is Kuching. Today is the day I back home. Once I arrived Kuching's airport, my parents brought me to shopping at Boulevard after have dinner at King Center. Anyway, I didn't take my dinner tonight as I have no appetite at all. I think is due to lack of SNOW ICE in my belly. =( Too bad, I lost the opportunity to go and have snow with her. But it's alright, I must have it once I back to Sibu again. ^^

I bought a short pant for my Chinese New Year. I hope that I won't getting fatter again as I couldn't and difficult to find my size =.=" I don't like to keep fit, I like to eat as much as I can. Food is the only thing that can make me survive in this world. xDDD lol. But, I starve for a night already. What to do. I NEED FOOD! =.="

I miss my friends at Sibu. >.<" Wish to be with them always...Huhuhu~

I'm Still A Beginner

25th of January, Sunny

Today, I almost corrupt my life. As I keep on thinking my troubles in my mind. When can I stop thinking those idiot? Anyway, thanks God safes me and give me a little bright day today~

We have a chat in the afternoon, after that have a lunch together. I felt so glad that she will correct my mistake whenever I'm wrong in whatever matters. Words that I used, said and the things that I do. I knew that lots of people don't like to let people criticize them, but what to do. This is how we learn from mistake and we will be more caution next time. Thanks to her. =) Her advice, I will bear in mind forever...

Tonight, we might have a feast for the coming CNY...I'm so excited about it. And I hope that we all will be happy around tonight. Can I say 不醉不归？Haha... Anyway, goodluck for today ^^

A Little Bright Light Appeared In Today

24th of Jan, Cloudy

Today, I met Mr. Lau to discuss about the T shirt for the BM Club. He gave me lots of opinions. But, I can feel that he kinda likes red colour. Since the day we have been chosen as the committees of the club, he started to mention about the T can be red in colour and bla~ The T shirt design has making me headache for 2 days. I tried my best to make it better and better. Since I know that I'm trying to find trouble for myself =.=" A lot of complains come from one of the committee. But, what to do? Gah...Just don't bother xDD. Anyway, After this design, I won't touch the things that related to BM Club anymore since not everyone is soooo appreciate my thing. Then what we I have been so hardworking and put so much effort on it? RUGI!!! 2 people have given me advice.
"Since no people appreciate you don't diao them la? So kind do what? Design got gaji meh? Always remember what I tell you, don't do things for free if they don't appreciate" 
"U say, U want, U take it, U dun like, then diam, do urself..U no rugi oso.. Save ur time sleep better" 
"It's hard to do anything if the club isn't cooperating. This is teamwork."
After I received these messages, I think twice. True also. Life should be like this. If people don't appreciate, what for you do for them with all your effort wasting your energy again? So, and now, I'll learn to be smarter next time. =)

Beside, this morning. I saw you.You're still not really in mood. This is what I think and I knew what reason make you do so. I'm trying to bear not to think about your face with the moody look. Finally I started text you,  we have a nice chatting after that. I felt so happy at least you're still in mood in text, LOL.Anyway, I don't wish to have any conflict between friend as I can't sleep well in the night. So I will treasure every friends that beside me and ever supported me =) Thanks

Friendship is IMPORTANT!

I Met You In My Life

New post and first post in January.

Last year in the 1st semester, I met you. You got a murderous look in the first sight I saw you. I kept on wondering what were you thinking usually and why would you show that kind of emotion. Since that, I made up my mind to know more about you and feel what kind of character you're playing.

Few months later, I did it. I did know you much better than others. I felt so pleasure to be one of your close friends. I'm so glad that to be together with you as I could learn and gain lots of things from you. I felt that I'm so lucky to meet such independent and full of knowledge in her mind. I'm kinda admire on her life. The lives that you went through in these years. For me, I might think that you're really perfect. Somehow, you might not think so. So? Urgh...You're still perfect for me...>.<" I wish to have the knowledge and experiences that you went through for so many years as well. Owing this might help me to become more independent in myself and would not rely on others anymore.

I do concern you much than I ever had. This is what I'm wondering for. Why? I don't know. Because I treat you as my best friend? How about sister? LOL....Yea..Indeed. I do. I don't have sister at home, but only an eldest brother. He doesn't talk much with me neither at home nor here. So I can treat anyone that I care very much. Who treat me good, I will be treat that person good as well as two times of it. So, this is me! Don't ever think that I'm a les or whatever. But, this is real of me. I couldn't change this kind of characteristic. This kind of characteristic followed me for 18 years since I was born. What to do.

But recently, it seems like something happened between us and feels like estrange from you. It's due to your personal problems or I'm the one who thinking to much? This question would struggle me for how long? No one knows. The most I scare is, the misunderstanding between us and make us couldn't be together like the feeling previously that we ever had. Since I know you got a case that kinda same as the case like now we're facing. But, I'm just treat you as best best friend that I ever had in my life. T.T You gave me motivation and taught me everything that I don't know. Am I naive? or stupid?

Give me some time not to rely and depend on you anymore. =(

SUSPEND...